Gandhi and the Godfather: part one.

Yo surf babies,

Life update:

I had my first Guinness beer last night. Yumnn.

Any-who, today's topic is: self esteem.

I haven't met a single person who hasn't struggled with self esteem at one time or another.
From what I've found, it's all about your state of mind, your attitude. You can be the fiercest, meanest sister out there if you simply think you are.
You can also be the most unworthy, stupid, useless stain out there too if you think you are.

When I've felt like the latter, it's because I'm under the influence of others.

Don't let people on the outside control or influence you.

Are you a bad mammajamma?

I am constantly living on two edges: Gandhi mentality and Godfather mentality.
Trust vs. Distrust
Non violence vs. Violence
Inclusive world view vs. Singular Survivalist view

Life has made me distrustful of everyone I encounter but it's a survival and coping tactic.

So what do you think:

(QUESTION OF THE DAY)

Gandhi or the Godfather (perhaps Scarface is more appropriate) mentality? Can you have both?

Crazy Heart = Crazy Good

Wow. I am in LOVE with this movie. I just saw it last night and am planning my second viewing already for possibly Monday if anyone wants to join me (tickets are only $5 so, cheap is the word)
The acting was beyond beyond beyond superb, the colors were beautiful and right on in terms of character definition/description, and the writing was just fabulous.
It's one of those movies where I forgot I was watching a movie with actors and scripts and cameras, etc. and just was immersed in the story because the acting was phenomenal and everything just was so organic and believable.

I miss the characters! I want them to be real!!

How interesting that the same week that I make the decision to move down to New Mexico (once the chips have all been saved up by December) I go and see a movie that takes place in the same state. It was so beautiful to see on screen and all I heard was "yes, you're making the right decision to move here."


"This ain't no place for the weary kind. This ain't no place to lose your mind. This ain't no place to fall behind. Pick up your crazy heart and give it one more try."

Fruit: the other, other white meat?

Dear Ones,

Two posts in one day? Holy moley! Somebody stop her!
Actually, I'm just a little bored/energized/my other post today only counts as half since it was incredibly short.
I've been getting into shape this past week and fruit has become a large staple in my diet once again.
Something I've been surprised at is my new found love of coconut ( Crazy, I know, but please refrain from telling your neighbors and friends of this important development...I'm trying to stay low-key ) But as I watched Desperate Housewives with my ma tonight, I saw a commercial for coconut m&ms and I'm pretty sure my heart stopped.
My mother was less than impressed as she let out a cold, "eww."
More for me.

Anyhow, my question of the day pertains to fruit.

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

Do you love any fruit that you previously hated?

and

Do you have any guilty fruit pleasures? (friends have made snobbish and/or horrified faces at me for loving grapefruit )

OBSESSIONS:

-1- Coconut
-2- Hair, minus the straightener (I'm pretty sure it thanks me at night for not burning it to oblivion lately)
-3- the band, Phoenix













Wait a minute - that's not fruit...





That's not fruit either, hey...

Go Getter

Dears,

I know exactly what I want and I'm going to get it!

Au Natural or Faux Natural?

Dear Ones,


As a female who chooses to wear makeup daily, I often find myself wanting to scrap the whole thing and never wear the stuff again because of the time, and cost. But it's fun for me, and I enjoy the art of it, so I continue.
But I can't help but want to move down to Arizona where I never wear makeup because it's so dang hot and the dry air and sunshine always does wonders for my bare skin.

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

What do you think about makeup? ( in any context )

OBSESSIONS:
-1- Wearing lots of rings and bracelets again (screw winter and it's conduction of cold through metal)
-2- Jogging
-3- My vitamins
-4- Cleaning (what a shocker!)

Happy Saturday!

PS All my Peppermint Schnapps is gone...is the peach flavor any good?


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You Know, I do kind of feel like a ram!

Dear Ones,

Whether or not you follow your horoscope, are into astrology, or not, you must have at least once encountered your zodiac symbol and thought about it.
You may have even thought these very thoughts:

"Does this thing represent me accurately?"
"How does this symbol make me feel as a person?" (hardy har har)
or
"What the hell is that?"
"If my symbol is cancer, does that mean I have or will have cancer?"
even
"Even though I don't believe in that stuff, my symbol can beat up yours."
or
"What happened to Miss Cleo?"
"Get to the point, Allis."

Okay.
For the most part, I just like seeing similarities between what the horoscope says and what actually happened. It's like a little injection of magic in my daily life.

But I was looking at pictures of rams today (very busy girl here) and I thought, "you know, I do kind of feel like a ram" but what does that even mean?
I don't know other than I like to run a lot, hiking uphill is fun, and maybe I prefer being on the solo more often than not.
And maybe I had horns that were removed at birth that I don't know about...Rosemary's baby, anyone?
Take from that what you will.

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

Do you ever fantasize about being from a different culture (I'm not saying race because I've taken far too many race-relations classes, etc. in college to know that there are no seperate races...)such as Irish, Bengali, Chinese, Chilean, etc.?

(Me? I've always wished I could've been born %100 Native American)

OBSESSIONS:
-1- Andy Warhol obsession has reemerged...eeek look out

Happy Friday!